|let's do the time warp again!
||[Jun. 9th, 2004|10:09 pm]
|||||pennywise- perfect people||]|
i soo wish i could smoke right now. i have nothing really to do tonight, or rather, i have the choice of not doing shit. i went to the fridge a while ago to go get a beer but there is none. all i found were 4 smirnoff ice of my sister's...which i will drink tonight. lol. she even told me earlier today that i better not drink them but fuck it, if i can't smoke i'm gonna fucking drink them. lately at home i've been anxious and just very frustrated with the limitations that have been set for me by my parents, especially my mom. sunday night i went out and i had to fucking fight with her just to let me go...same thing last night i had to fight with her. i'm 22 years old and they should give me more fucking space. i have a lock on my door and my mom gets pissed when i lock it. she's like if you keep locking your door i'm gonna take the lock off. oh my fucking god! what the fuck is a lock for?! so what if i'm rolling a joint...so what if i just want to have it locked!....fuck! these are things people do in their rooms and if they have their door locked it means they don't want anyone to come in!
the only thing that is kind of okay with me is my job. i'm finally working where i want to work...but my days off suck ass. monday and tuesday. they told me yesterday, which was tuesday when i was at work about that. they gave me the option of having wednesday and thursday off so it took me all day to decide but i went ahead and took them off. today i slept in til 3pm or so and it was nice. around 5 i went to dinner with my sister and neice then came home. i've been in my room since and it has totally sucked ass. its barely 10:30pm and i'm waiting for my parents to go to sleep so i can go smoke. they would totally hate me if they knew i still smoked. right now i'm in the midst of a change in my life. i am not really sure what that entitles but i really need a change.
tomorrow im going to the dmv (department of motor vehicles) to take the test for my drivers license. i really hope i pass so i can fucking have it already!
i don't have high hopes of doing anything exciting tomorrow. i know i'm just gonna waste my time doing whatever i decide to do. there are endless possibilities in life but it all seems hopeless right now.
i don't know what to do with myself right now. i kind of want to watch a movie. i dunno what though. kill bill or donnie darko. or neither? lol. i'm out. adios.